Disappointment Knows No End…

I plan my days around his schedule. Literally, I shower when he is working out, I do homework when he is at the trainer, and I do my magazine work while he is working. I’m surprised I don’t plan each breath around his. I like to be 10 minutes early to class, so I can get my stuff organized and be ready to go in case the professor starts early, but he begs me to wait for him each morning, and I end up getting to class with only a minute to spare. And if i leave without him, I am a horrible girlfriend. Something like that happens almost every day and I am sick of it!

Tonight was the last straw. I was ready to go to bed around 10:30, because I had a really shitty and exhausting day. But of course he has to much work to do, so I sit up with him so that we can go to bed together. So I am bored and decide to start a new book I have been wanting to read. So, 11:45 rolls around and he shuts his books and says, “okay, lets go” and when I don’t instantly put my book up and jump to go, he starts whining “Baby, I have to get up at 6, can we please go to bed?” And thats when I snapped. I was ready to go to bed an hour and fifteen minutes ago but I stayed up yet he can’t even let me finish the damn chapter!  So I told him how I felt and then kicked him out. But of course, I’ll probably feel bad and head down there in about ten minutes…just like I always do…..